I had about 2 weeks where I had no new appointments, no new “scares”, nothing new to look in to. It was cruise control. It was maintenance. Then a busy week hit. 6 medical appointments. Adjusting and switching medications. A biopsy that left me with stitches. Sedation and injections in my neck to treat herniated discs. I’ve been napping each day this week as I have been extra tired.
The Lord continues to stretch me. And right now the stretching is painful.
I like the weeks that I feel like I have a normal schedule. 3 medical appointments and nothing else. Just house chores and errands and going on walks. Playing with my kids. Date night with my husband. Each little bit of normalcy is such a treat.
God’s hold on my life is steady and consistent even when everything around me is shifting, moving, and unstable.
I’ve now been doing infusions 3 days each week for several months. And it feels like a really good routine. I know the nurses and the staff. I have become friendly and acquainted with other patients. The girls get to come with me on Saturday mornings and we make it “fun mom time”. From the outside, I am a healthy looking lady with energy and a smile. That is the side I enjoy showing. When others are close and in my “world” they get to see the whole picture. And that is just the way I like it.
While treatments and diagnosis ebb and flow. The outcomes shift and change. But, “He then is my hope and stay.”